And I'm currently in the library. Looking for a new work place.
Recently speaking with our Security Cashier and telling her;
"You know I'm out off bed earlier on the days I'm off from work. Because I want to make the best of it." Because of the shift work I carry out, I feel I rarely get days or time to myself. A night shift means awaiting throughout the day for work to arrive. A mid-day shift means the chance for brunch and maybe my hair to dry naturally. So when it comes to a number of days off work; I want it all.
Carpe Diem melonfarmers.
Neatly beside the window at Ormeau Road Library. With BBCRadio3 playing. Because I am classy. I have not the first clue of the artist or composer I'm listening to. I just enjoy letting the sweeping sounds tickle my earbuds.
Then I'm going to spend the afternoon with coffee, cake and blue ink pens.
Interesting things happen to other people it seems. I on the other hand try to look at things in an interesting way. I wouldn't say I try to make things interesting. Because I've usually been too scared to create drama.
Regarding that, I have discovered those who try to create drama are doing it because they have an empty feeling in their personality. But we all can't deny how drawn we are to it.
Though I have been reading Edith Eger's The Choice for my book-group. There has been much to learn from it. The idea of stopping oneself from feeling like a victim. And also thinking about oneself first in such a manner, that you are not here for everyone else to depend on you.
I would like to choose to live a lot more freely. And by making it known when someone hurts me. I'm sure I can be brave in some respects. And I guess today is a new day to find out.
It's coming up to 10.30am. And already I've applied for one job. I'm not doing more than that. In the past I exhausted myself. Up to four jobs a day I remember writing to. And very few responded. The new method means I can place my focus on one application and spend more time getting to know its criteria.
I'm aware this is the first blog I've done in many months. It's only right that I return to the passion I studied. And then left for minimum wage. I'm not fair on myself. And yet I'm the one person who deserves to be fair to me.
